When I was in high school I wanted to be a great dancer.
When no one was home I’d turn up the music and just move. Jumping, spinning, and doing all sorts of crazy things. I’d never had any training. I understood nothing about dance theory. I just loved how it felt to move to music!
But I was a closet dancer. I wasn’t confident in my dancing and had a fragile self-image. I was afraid what others would think if they saw me dancing. So the only time I really danced was when no one was watching. When I danced around others I used the safe, small shuffle step perfected by so many over the years.
One day I was at a formal dance with a girl I really liked. We were dancing and having a good time. In an effort to feel better about my dancing ability I pointed to another guy and laughed, “At least I dance better than him!”
My date looked at me and said, “No you don’t!” and shook her head.
That was one of the last times I ever danced. And I think that was the last time I danced for real.
I internalized her comment. I put so much value on her opinion of my dancing skills that my subconscious mind latched onto her comment and used it as evidence to validate my fears about dancing. I’d been holding on to her opinion and letting it dictate my desire and ability to dance. From then on, every time I thought of dancing a little voice said, “remember when…” effectively squashing my desire to dance.
But you know what?
Even after all this time, there’s still a part of me that wants to dance!
I’ve learned to let go of a lot in life. Like all humans, I’m a layered being. Over the past four years I’ve stripped away many layers of false notions, flawed beliefs, thinking problems, and baggage accumulated through my life. I’m still at it too! We evolve psychologically and spiritually until we die—and I believe that even when our physical bodies shed their last breath our journey continues.
Well, as I write this today I’ve discovered the next layer of fear and discomfort I must peel away from my subconscious. I don’t know about you…
But for me, It’s Time to Dance!
You Are The Master of Your Destiny!
P.S. If you’re holding on to something that’s holding you back, Your Blueprint, Life by Design can show you how to overcome it.
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